brain-freeze(Not Literal )

So after a few months without schooling, my brain went into a no-idea state.
Any thoughts deeper than 3mm from the brain surface just doesn't exist anymore.
this thoughtful thoughts blog just became:"thoughtless thoughts"

I think I need school.

Yes, studying make a human's brain more than juicy tofu.

Indeed.


I've been missing out my Time's reading for quite a while, I think I'll make tomorrow a reading day.

Yes, reading.




So here we have the thoughts thoughtful question of the day:

What really is friendship?




btw, the Costco part-time job went okay today. I wish I get the phone call in on week.

so it's another bittersweet moment

it's just sweet and bitter.


but I just can't help loving it.

Although it promotes the fact I'm the one who is still alone these days.


But what can I do? This is just how life goes, in a weird technique that God always used to paint his beautiful canvas.
Maybe this is just the draft?
Something big is going to happen sometime?

But we're born humans, we can't help but wonder when is the coloring process going to start?


I think I just have to keep on walking down the road,

And let the path find me.




Can someone teach me how to play a guitar?

vacant

as for now, I'm done with school for the rest of the spring,
(hmm... not officially, considering I still have to attend my exploring visual expression final review and turn in my psychology work sheets, both of them on Thursday)

Now it leaves me the whole Wednesday, Thursday afternoon, and Friday with nothing really to do before I head to Utah on Saturday.

"Typical summer vacancy"
∆
Thats how I call it.


I got more than 60 vacant hours for me to do something. Or nothing.


But still, I have yet come up with anything extraordinarily efficient way to kill those time.
(Packing up for the up coming 3 week trip is something, but thats mandatory)





I think probably just watch baseball and re-scan some film the whole time.





Plus I hate waiting, can't tell you how excited I am to go to Utah and Texas to visit friends.

the ironic B

Just got my grade on my Mandarin Class today.
a lame 85, which is a solid B.

I mean, hey, I'm a native mandarin speaker!

WTF?!

a B?

totally non-sense.

But after going through the details from the teacher, I found out I screwed up on my final oral, and I did bad on one of the five quizzes during the semester(I accidently missed one section of the quiz).

But a B is still a B.

I'll take it.


Hope my psychology 001 class will be okay, something like a B will be highly appreciated.
And nothing goes wrong with my exploring visual expression class doesn't, should be having at least a B+

Then this spring quarter in school will really be a success.

a sweet mistake?

so I decided to wash my vans today.

It was all clean when I set it to dry, but when it dried I came back to check,some of the colors from the inside bled out.

Wasn't expecting that to happen...

But I remembered that when I got this pair of vans, they gave me another pair of shoe laces with the scuba color.

I decided to put it on, with the slight dye, it looked qute good in fact...


A sweet mistake? oh yeah,(pretended....seems that I just have to live with it from now on...)

so it was an easy going day today...

I felt that I really have to write something today... although there was nothing


so here it goes:


it was a nice friday. Sunny. Good weather.

although woke up dead late for class, still managed to attend it.

Came back home after the class, decided there is the necessity head back into the warm bed.
So there I drooled on the bed for the whole afternoon, while being waken up by the stupid workers upstairs fixing stuff a few time, still managed to get some bit of sleep.

Mom called me at 3:30pm to go pick up a friends grandparents from the flower shop back to their home.
So I woke up, went to drove the car again.


As I got back, it was about time for the game between the Yankee's and the Marlin's to start.
But considering Mom did allowed me watched the last few games, I decided to go to costco with her.

But

Costco trip came out quite costy.

But lots of good food.

and a book to read: Living on the Black: Two pitchers, two teams, one season to remember. (Dang I love baseball)


Got back home, got a text from April, replied back.
(I was seriously so excited she did text me, I mean, ha)

Played some Counter-Strike: Source and Day of Defeat:Source.

Spend the night typing this blog.


It's a very nice summer day.


Only got two classes left for this semester.
Monday afternoon & Thursday morning.
Heading to Utah on next Saturday.
Then to Texas the friday after that.

Lets see how the heat in Del Rio melts me.



How about you guys, anything fun?

weird life with dino poop

So I was talking to Erika D tonight on facebook chat, we were talking how life is weird now with everyone getting married and etc.

Then this was what I said:


"Life is weird, and yuck sometimes, weird&yuck like sticking your hand in a big chunk of dinosaur poop to look for your satellite phone to call for help. "
(From Jurassic Park3)


Do you guys have any other examples to explain life?

drain of inspiration

it's kinnda weird these days that I just don't know what to write.


Kinnda weird. It's always been easy for me to make up some crap easily.


Maybe just because life has been kinnda doh these days.




- Just met a girl in my mandarin class, the name is Ms. Fan, Alice Fan.
Born here, but her family's from Shanghai.
She's a awesome photographer, I mean, quite talented. And has excellent Photoshop skills.(I hate photoshop. lol)
here's her flickr


She does really great self portraits, and all those shots.



-Trouble on my final portfolio for my exploring visual expression class, just trouble. (I'm never good at putting things together.)

-Still can't decide how long will I stay in Texas this summer visiting April and Brooke. I'm either staying till the 11th or the 18th. The final decision will be made after my dad's coworker/family friend of ours tells me will I have a chance to get a job in LA this summer. Wish the ticket price doesn't soar too high before I order it


whats else? hmmmmmmmmm....

left over words

I always suspect myself for talking too much.



I just can't organized all my idea's into one single sentience.



I wish I didn't annoy you.



I just tried hard to get myself clear.

there was a song

a song that I found on iTunes


which happens to be the Matt & Kim

album: Grand

"Lessons Learned"
"Cinders"
"Daylight"

gave me a couple wonderful days and nights.



the whole Utah/Texas trip is also done planning and the tickets.
Now I just have to buy the ticket to go back home, and we're all set for adventure.







Here's the deal:
If you believe in God, believe him hard.
If you don't, just believe in yourself.
Either way, you gotta believe, cause if you do, there is always the chance higher than 0%, even it's 0.001%.(Cause things like 0.001% always happens, you never know)

Don't use him(I mean God) as the excuse or the purpose of your life.
He gave you life, gave you a chance to be something, with meaning.
Don't blame God if things didn't happen, cause he already gave you the chance. You know He always work things in weird ways.

Either way, if anything happens, you just gotta suck it up, cause it's your life.


Does these words even make any sense to you?







Ha I'm agnostic and I'm talking all this shit.

A weird week.

Didn't do much.

Class on Wednesday got canceled cause my psyc teacher always takes a day off after holidays.

Felt hollow from doing nothing really extraordinary.

Spent some money that I shouldn't spend on a new sweater and a belt.

Saw the summer plane tickets went up 60 bucks with a rate of $30 per week.

Sold all my old shoes to a thrift store in San Jose and got a few bucks back.

Saw the Yankee's took the first place in the American League East but the RedSox's are still close behind out tail.

Drank 3 liters of Dr. Pepper in one day.

Ran out of money to buy my pre pay development envelop for my film.

Stopped taking photos just to save some film for my Utah/Texas trip.

Got my broken Swatch replaced with a brand new one with no cost right away.

Had a nasty bad hair day and a good one too.

Played some PC games till 5 am in the morning.

Lost my phone charger some where in San Diego.(Eventually found it under my butt in the couch)

Spent 2 hours reading 3 editions of Time after missing it for 2 weeks.

Talked to a long-time-no-talk good friend on Facebook(Still better than nothing..:P), felt great. Can't wait to go visit her family in Texas.

I think thats basically the deal for this weird felling short week.



Good luck on the finals for the people that are still in hawaii.

Possibilities

Okay. I admit I'm unpredictable, unstable, inconsistent in doing all these planning.

But just to tell you now.

Going back to Hawaii will not be a dream anymore.


Just like people deciding to get married only for married for couple months, I'm making my decision in one night that I'm heading back to hawaii for sure.



For all the wonderful friends I love, for the beautiful beach I miss, for the lovely sun that tans me well.

Me, tingler, will see you in hawaii.



I'm also going to start a small photography business. Helping out all those wonderful couples getting married with an affordable cost and quality service. Any ideas how I should name my business?

Memorial Weekend.

film for the weekend.



Hope it comes out good.

achievement?

I forgot how long did I have my flickr account.

A few years?

I admit the photo number is quite massive

Can you blame me? ha


Get a flickr account. And go look for me




Btw I'm in Murrieta, CA now in Alex's uncles home.
Visiting for the weekend and memorial day.

Went to the near by hills took some great pictures with my film.

Kinnda did a little experiment with different film, just gotta wait till I develop them to see the results.

Stupidly opened the camera film hatch before rewinding the film inside,I was on frame#3, I think it killed a few frames on the roll. very bad move.I call myself an idiot just for that!

Tomorrow is church day. Oh dear, they go to a spanish speaking church.
Thats really gonna kill me.
But still thank god it's not 7 in the morning.

ha

Take me to the ball game.

So here I am, in South Cali.

Just got back from a LA Angles @ LA Dodgers game

My first ball game in the states.


Amazing. Totally different from what you see on the TV or the internet.

It's addictive.



Sang my first "Take me to the ball game"(Went off tone.)

Caught my first homerun ball. (I wish! too bad it didn't really happen)


Too bad the Dodgers lost. 1-3


Whats next?



oh by the way this is my 100th post. finally.

the day dream

sometimes it a scene
or it's just a single tone or melody
that gives you a chill to the bone

not an unpleasant feel. but more like a frequency synchronization
your body tells you it heard that before.
it felt that before, maybe just your conscious mind depressed it.

The melody, struck in your mind, struck hard.
it's emotional, but no tears.
just you sitting there, your feelings pulled out from the reality
trying to recognize the time and space in a different dimension
like when you're lying there with the one you love in sleep, it quite, it's peaceful.


just when the reality hits, you're on the street by yourself, lonely.
but the feeling still lingers in your mind. Like an echo.
and you walk forwards.

film scans

the room



Fujichrome Velvia50 / EOS3 EF501.4USM




the home made cake



Fujichrome Velvia50 / EOS3 EF501.4USM

Problematic of Opposite Sex Friendships

So here's an issue.


How do you recognize and separate friendship and sexual attraction from each other?

Is that friend love, or loving a girl love?

In a situation you have a lot opposite sex good friends, you're still dang single, thats gonna be an big issue(unless you're gay.)
You love all your friends. Amazing Girls. But you also feel lonely from all the years from being single.
Dating your friends, I don't know, it's just weird.
And sometimes the attempt of relationship might even ruin the friendship itself.


All I can think of is to be passive about things.
Friendship first priority, a least thats what I'm doing now. (I'm never getting married, am I?)


Dang I need to date people.

Why never people come and ask me out for a date?



Any other suggestions?

aftermath

it feels weird now
after chelsea came, and she left.
it feels like you had something very meaningful to you returned to you.
but just for a day.
and it's gone again


just like the ending of the movie Artificial Intelligent.

The robot boy get to be with her mother, but just for one day.



and like there is so much I wanna to say, so much wanna do
but didn't got the chance



alone again.

miss you all.

I'm selling my lens- SOLD

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=150343979296

Canon EF-s 10-22mm f/3.5-5.6 USM

Super wide angle zoom lens for Canon EOS Rebel's, EOS 20D 30D 40D 50D, APS-C size sensor cameras.

Mint condition.(I mean VERY good) Under warranty.

ESRP $750

I'm selling it for $535 on ebay.



If any of you guys want it. As a friend I can give you a friendship discount.(for example like $25 off?)

please tell your friends, and friends of your friends!

Free to contact me if you got any questions.