deal tree in the living springs

coming soon

photos taken on Slide film in Yellowstone National Park are soon to be up in this week.

just gotta do the final selection and edit.


I promise you they are extraordinary

it's nothing that from digital can compare on film!

just not right

Whats wrong with all those Canon Rebel users always having their built-in flash on when they are shooting in bright day light or in big red hot sun?

Did you guys even read the manual? Or should I suppose “auto” mode is the preferred setting to use an DSLR?

Then why waste all the extra money getting a big chunk of glass shooting it like a DC, instead you could have saved hundreds of dollars on a regular DC.

Or just you want to feel like a “PRO” with a PRO like camera?

so its all about selling moon cakes.

Just got on this job for not long.

I started this job with the preparation of quitting it 3 weeks later.

To support my voyage to hawaii.

And yet everyday on work I think about how bad I will feel for me too quit this job I just gotten used to and starting to master.

And yet every second on work I think when can I leave this place and head back to hawaii.

This could have been a good chance for me to really establish something here in Cali.
But too late for regretting, I've already withdraw my classes in De Anza college, paid my deposit and rent in hawaii, and about to order my ticket to hawaii.




I think of hawaii as the place that would fix the problems in my life.
But will it really be like that?
I can't say it will ultimately solve it, but at least temporally.
Sounds like I'm running from my problems huh?
I do admit.




Hawaii was a heaven to me.
the best Friends that I loved, and they loved me back(I suppose..). the sunshine, the beach(although I don't go there that much), the nice people, the art nights, the hugs, the McDonalds on Sunday, the bike riding in the rain(kinnda scary), the hanging out, the late night chats on the bench, the run to Chevron for snacks at 3am. Just everything.

You can't deny it's not heaven.



I do know that I can't stay in hawaii for too long. I have a life to get on track. People will eventually leave.(some might) My photography education in Chicago. My dreams(do I even have one?) And all the responsibilities that I have to fulfill. All the places I have to go.(Plus all the money I have to earn) All the friends that I'll have to visit across the US. Europe. The bronx, Yankees Stadium.




So as I'm daydreaming. A customer comes by, my mind sucks back to real life. I'm standing at the bakery in the chinese market selling moon cakes at this month of September, and hawaii is 2 weeks and 3 days away.

honesty

Ting Shen:
question
how can you be honest when you know your honesty is going to hurt someone that you know
and you don't want to hurt them,

Erika Dick:
hmmm

Ting Shen:
and the situation looks like thats the only thing you can do

Erika Dick:
well i think tact would be key
haha
you have to be honest with them
but try to go at it gently
and in a way that will cause the least pain

Ting Shen:
12: 06
timing huh

Erika Dick:
acknowledge to them that you are going to try to be honest but that your intentions are not to hurt

Ting Shen:
good point
taken
thanks

Erika Dick:
most people will at least try to take that to heart
ya know?
maybe not right away
but after they cool down
and give the situation thought
they would probably appreciate it more ya know?

Ting Shen
haha
love how you use the "ya know"

Erika Dick
hah sometimes i think i say it too much

the only thing I can do

So I just withdrew a blog entry


For the sake of a friendship.

I had to.




I do not want to sacrifice a precious friendship just cause of expressing my own feelings.



thats has always been my style of doing things.