deal tree in the living springs

coming soon

photos taken on Slide film in Yellowstone National Park are soon to be up in this week.

just gotta do the final selection and edit.


I promise you they are extraordinary

it's nothing that from digital can compare on film!

just not right

Whats wrong with all those Canon Rebel users always having their built-in flash on when they are shooting in bright day light or in big red hot sun?

Did you guys even read the manual? Or should I suppose “auto” mode is the preferred setting to use an DSLR?

Then why waste all the extra money getting a big chunk of glass shooting it like a DC, instead you could have saved hundreds of dollars on a regular DC.

Or just you want to feel like a “PRO” with a PRO like camera?

so its all about selling moon cakes.

Just got on this job for not long.

I started this job with the preparation of quitting it 3 weeks later.

To support my voyage to hawaii.

And yet everyday on work I think about how bad I will feel for me too quit this job I just gotten used to and starting to master.

And yet every second on work I think when can I leave this place and head back to hawaii.

This could have been a good chance for me to really establish something here in Cali.
But too late for regretting, I've already withdraw my classes in De Anza college, paid my deposit and rent in hawaii, and about to order my ticket to hawaii.




I think of hawaii as the place that would fix the problems in my life.
But will it really be like that?
I can't say it will ultimately solve it, but at least temporally.
Sounds like I'm running from my problems huh?
I do admit.




Hawaii was a heaven to me.
the best Friends that I loved, and they loved me back(I suppose..). the sunshine, the beach(although I don't go there that much), the nice people, the art nights, the hugs, the McDonalds on Sunday, the bike riding in the rain(kinnda scary), the hanging out, the late night chats on the bench, the run to Chevron for snacks at 3am. Just everything.

You can't deny it's not heaven.



I do know that I can't stay in hawaii for too long. I have a life to get on track. People will eventually leave.(some might) My photography education in Chicago. My dreams(do I even have one?) And all the responsibilities that I have to fulfill. All the places I have to go.(Plus all the money I have to earn) All the friends that I'll have to visit across the US. Europe. The bronx, Yankees Stadium.




So as I'm daydreaming. A customer comes by, my mind sucks back to real life. I'm standing at the bakery in the chinese market selling moon cakes at this month of September, and hawaii is 2 weeks and 3 days away.

honesty

Ting Shen:
question
how can you be honest when you know your honesty is going to hurt someone that you know
and you don't want to hurt them,

Erika Dick:
hmmm

Ting Shen:
and the situation looks like thats the only thing you can do

Erika Dick:
well i think tact would be key
haha
you have to be honest with them
but try to go at it gently
and in a way that will cause the least pain

Ting Shen:
12: 06
timing huh

Erika Dick:
acknowledge to them that you are going to try to be honest but that your intentions are not to hurt

Ting Shen:
good point
taken
thanks

Erika Dick:
most people will at least try to take that to heart
ya know?
maybe not right away
but after they cool down
and give the situation thought
they would probably appreciate it more ya know?

Ting Shen
haha
love how you use the "ya know"

Erika Dick
hah sometimes i think i say it too much

the only thing I can do

So I just withdrew a blog entry


For the sake of a friendship.

I had to.




I do not want to sacrifice a precious friendship just cause of expressing my own feelings.



thats has always been my style of doing things.

Comments about the Kayne West and taylor Swift incident

First of all, this is nothing about choosing Taylor Swift or Kayne West.

It’s true that Kayne did a wrong thing that night. He should be criticized for ruining Taylor’s big moment in her life.

But at the same time, I feel sorry for West too, for the mistake he has done at that moment. I know how bad it feels at after he realizes what damage he has done to Taylor.

If a person have any sympathy, you should know he is no different than us as humans, we are not perfect, we all make mistakes.

What would you do if you were Kayne in that situation? What will you feel if everyone is bashing on you, and you broke Taylor’s heart. (Sure you can say you will never let yourself get in that kind of situation. You must be a real god like since you “never” make mistakes)

West sure was the dumbest guy on the earth at the moment, but he was brave enough to step up and say sorry on Jay Leno’s show. He better learn his lesson this time, and not be a idiot in the future.

I will not comment if that was for damage control or anything else, I would assume it a legit apology.

Sure Taylor was the victim that night, if I were her I would just start crying on the stage. But we shall not use this opportunity to find a reason to attack of what West have not done.

We as audiences should give him another chance of proving himself, rather than bringing gas to the fire, doing more and more criticizing…(If he later shows a pattern still doing the same mistakes and saying sorry after. then thats another story)

And for those who continually to criticize West is a racist or anything else, you better step back, and look at what you are doing, it is no better than what he did that night, or even worse.

As long as Taylor forgives him later, this should be an private issue between West and Swift. Even if she doesn’t, still.

We should learn how to love and forgive. Not hate. Hate never solves problems, it creates more issue.

Funny if you check most the comments on NBC’s video are full of hate and crap.

http://www.thejaylenoshow.com/video/clips/kanye-west/1157073/

And you will know what the general American population are thinking.

(I won’t go further into it, justify it yourself.)

Plus there are far more important issues happening out there for us to care about than this. We Are the ones that need to grow up.

Text conversation between me and collette today.

me: Collette! Are you kidding me?! You're not going back?

Collette: No. Staying here(Utah) to go to the U. :(

me: this is bull crap sis! Whats wrong with you?! How could you leave us behind?

Collette: It's a better schoo choice and I need to be here still sad enough

me:When did all this happen?

Collette: Like two days ago.

me: The U told you were accepted?

Collette:Haven't applied yet but I talked to a counselor it will be fine.

me: I can't believe you…

Collette:Ting I'm really sorry.

me: You just made my attempt to go back to hawaii less meaningful…

me: Visit us during thanksgiving? Unlikely huh?

me: How could you?! Why Collette why!? Why why why?!

Collette: Ting you are going to make me cry.

me: you already made me cry by telling me the bad news. So it's my job to make you cry now. Fair enough?

me:When you made the decision did you even considerate that I was trying everything I got to go back to be with you guys? Why why why…….. Or maybe we just didn't meant that much to you after all…?


Collette: Ting I can't base my decisions entirely on the people I love.

me: I know I know. I'm just giving you a hard time. But still you see how I cherish the opportunity to be with the ones I love, like you Collette. Can't blame you in this situation. It's just how we were born and raised differently in different backgrounds. So we tend to look at the world with different values. But I promise you, memories are always worth the money.



Gonna miss you lots Collette, love you.

Seems like we'll just have to wait till I get to Utah so we can meet again. Godspeed.

Post effects of 500 days of summer

yup.

the effects from that movie are still lingering in my head.



For example. Dreams. It always contains something about me with Zooey, and erika d getting married or having a relationship with Joseph.(Or sometime it's alyssa h, it either the one of them two)

And still in my mind, it never changed, I still believe in the "she's the one" theory.

I just can't tell myself that she is not.

I mean, I just tend to get into a girl so much that probably my friends will call me crazy too.

Anyways, I wish that I had a Zooey. (And certainly a Joseph for the girls)

Progress update on returning to hawaii

"Breaking News! I'm going back to hawaii!"
duh. what a stupid line.


Anyways, yes, I'm going back to hawaii for sure.

I found my place to stay.
And I got the money for the housing contract deposit, and sent it already on thursday.
Now I just have to get my plane ticket asap.



I suppose I will arrive at the place around late september, or even early october.
We'll see how it goes once I get the money so I can order my ticket.

It will be crazy packing all the stuff, LOL, especially the bike.(thats gonna cost me like 100 extra to bring it with me on the plane to hawaii.)


And yes, I have to find a job as soon as I get to hawaii.
Now I only have the budget to sustain living in hawaii for a month.




Now I'm in Mojave desert enjoying my last road trip visiting Roxanne Miller.


BTW Baseball post season is coming soon!

A trip down south to the Mojave desert

took me 5 hours and 38minutes to arrive at Ridgecrest.

it was quite a good drive alone the way down south.


to meet the infamous Roxanne Miller.



this place really is in the middle of nowhere.



LOL



Tomorrow is scheduled for Six Flags.

in progress 3/4

So I finished the scanning of the slide film from Yellowstone, now what is left is the long and painful retouching….