for the good of myself

my NYY cap made the scene.




so now

I'm stuck with looking for a place to stay in hawaii.

stupid little town.

Is it that hard to find a place to stay in Laie?



anyways.




I found out that I tend to be more efficient in doing things when I got friends around in my life.

'Motivation"

I just tend to have more reason to do things when I have people around.


I realized didn't really finish much things here alone in the bay area for the past 8 months.
Except for the part I did not bad at school. Maybe that's the most worthy thing I've done in a while.
kinnda sad huh.



I think it's better for me to go back to hawaii this fall.

Productive.

the whole film scanning and retouching business is back online.

Edward Hopper

"Chop Suey"(1929)




"Road in Maine"(1914)




"Automat"(1927)




"Lighthouse Hill"(1927)




"New York Restaurant" (1922).




"Nighthawks" (1942)



It all began as the mid term paper for my photo class in spring.
We had to go to down town San Francisco to visit the gallery.

But somehow it turned out to be one of my favorite paintings I've seen.

Edward Hopper’s work focused on the plain truthfulness, the silence part of the America life, and his unique perspective in his work later influenced various photographers’ style impacted American photography.

When looking at Edward Hopper’s works, it tells a story of the common American life style that we used to experience. Like gas stations, motels, restaurants, theaters, and street scenes. Showing a feel of emotional themes like solitude, loneliness, regret, boredom, and resignation in the paintings and photographs. A special feel we don’t really see in the major leading styles of painting and photography. Human character in the photograph and the painting, lack with motion, interacts with their environment; with solo figures, couples, or groups. It demonstrates the emotions of these human in various environments, including public places, in apartments, on the road. Hopper positioned his characters as if they have been captured just before or just after the climax of a scene, like stills for a movie or tableaux in a play. A quiet story happening in silence that transforms into a rush of emotion.

His painting somehow resonances the style I'm trying to approach in my personal photography works.

hmm.

photo about thoughts

bla bla bla again




So as being a photographer, an artist that masters the light and the camera:
One of the most important thing is to have your own distinctive style. Gotta separate yourself from others, the general public.
I haven't fully developed my own style yet, but I know what I am doing, and where am I going.



These days cause of the popularization of the digital cameras, photography no longer is that such a luxury hobby for the rich and famous ones. Cause of the more people out there doing photography, it's even more important to stand out from everyone. There is just too much photographers these days all doing the same photos, the same pose, the same composition. The beginners all just copy others style, they get lost and lose themselves in the "taste of the general public" tidal wave. Being a photographer is never as artistic as it was anymore.




To make an example, photographers we see today most frequently, wedding photographers.


There is nothing wrong being a wedding photographer.
But if everyone all does the same kind of photos, then thats not no longer art.

Most of the wedding photographers, especially female wedding photographers (nothing personal), they all tend to do the same kind of photos.

They love to make the bride and groom "gloomy" in the photo with photoshop.
They love to tilt the horizon, to make the photo look more "fun".
They love to do posing pictures, with both the boy and girl faking.
They love to edit the photo in photoshop and tune up the contrast, vibrancy, saturation to make it look more "vivid".

I mean, it's all faked up.

Okay okay, I'm more a documentary style photographer. So it's my problem, huh.

hmm
Nope.

Let me ask you
Isn't a wedding/marriage a on going process?
Isn't it real? Like happening?
Then why faking it by adding those things? Posing pictures showing how beautiful and how handsome the bride and groom is.
How beautiful is the smile is.


Oh please, you can get the most beautiful smile easier than posing and faking it.



"A lot of photographers spend their entire lives try to create the perfect picture, there is no such thing. The only thing that is perfect is the moment" Joe buissink



the Moment, the Real human emotions are something that you cannot make up.



Photography is about the real stuff. It's the real stuff in the photo, the moment that carries the emotion and the meaning.
The true beautiful thing is the emotions, not how it it looks on the surface.


I think a lot photographers do not know this.


Or they might have just forgotten it, cause to survive they must adopt the general public's taste.









this is just my own perception of photography.

A lot of people might disagree with me

I don't blame them.

Because the perception of art is subjective.

that gives me the right to criticize them too.



Sometimes I hate to let people know I'm a photographer, cause photography has just made itself cheap.

it's almost like:
Photographer=Cheap artist.



you get my point?



BTW, I hate doing wedding photography.



but here is a wedding photographer I truly admire:
http://www.joebuissink.com/

the hardest part

is to have a bunch of free time and nothing to do.

especially when your personal computer is in the process of repair.

plus the gaming rig is down.



I just didn't grew up in a environment that requires you to make up things to do by yourself.

Taiwan....you can never not find things to do.


But the States, even the wonderful Silicon Valley.... without friends and money...it's the same as stuck in the middle of the corn field some where in Iowa.


And plus my iPod has deceased. A lonely night without money, without music, without friends. Ah crap.


I'm really going crazy with all this emptiness. Can't wait to go back to Hawaii. Seriously.

But will I succeed in going back?

Thats another issue.

photography

"Photography"

n.
The art or process of producing images of objects on photosensitive surfaces.
The art, practice, or occupation of taking and printing photographs.
A body of photographs.







It's been a while I have not yet taken a single photo.

Like three weeks or something.

Not a single photo.



Feel like losing myself these days.
Donno why.


whats photography?

It's the process of make a moment into eternity.

the motion, emotions, all of it.



So according to my own definition above.

I think I just don't have much to make into eternity these days.

Nothing much happening.

things are turning superficial around me these days.

Or just I'm blinded?


But what caused the blind?


Or I just needed more emotions into the daily life?

brain-freeze(Not Literal )

So after a few months without schooling, my brain went into a no-idea state.
Any thoughts deeper than 3mm from the brain surface just doesn't exist anymore.
this thoughtful thoughts blog just became:"thoughtless thoughts"

I think I need school.

Yes, studying make a human's brain more than juicy tofu.

Indeed.


I've been missing out my Time's reading for quite a while, I think I'll make tomorrow a reading day.

Yes, reading.




So here we have the thoughts thoughtful question of the day:

What really is friendship?




btw, the Costco part-time job went okay today. I wish I get the phone call in on week.

stuck

so I'm stuck here agin.

with uncertain plans

too much possibilities

way too much "what if?"


it's the money, the job, hawaii, the girl, friendship, salt lake, school, life and all that crap.


Still I'm siting here in my living room, without the panic on my face.

"What am I hesitating?"









just like the impression I got from "(500) days of summer".
but it's probably not going to be what you think it will be.




.friendship.
I might even visit new york city this december.

so we all gonna see each other in salt lake city next winter?
Go to the Sundance film festival altogether
jump in the snow and do a snow fight.

(I want to try jumping into the snow with just my shorts on.)
Dance on the streets saying hi to random people.

train myself into a marksman.

have my 21st birthday in vegas,(probably not.)





anyways.



hope I can attend the appointment with the Hawaii beach on time.

I'll see ya there

yellowstone.

cute little fella! how are ya!





seems like you got friends.






and hello Mister.


























beautiful hot springs










































all on EOS40D.


The good ones on film has yet to come.

patient my friends.

friend project #4

Jesus Molinar



Taken while visiting April Powell in Del Rio, TX.

He's a close friends of the Powell's/Mills. And a good friend of mine when I was in BYUH. Political Science Major. Graduating this December along with April.

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Friends Project#3

The third set of the friend project.

April Powell.







Taken while visiting her family in Del Rio, TX.

She's Brooke's older sister, second oldest in the family. And a good friend of mine when I was in BYUH. She's an art major. Graduating this december.

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Friends Project#2

Brooke Powell.





Taken while visiting her family in Del Rio, TX this July.

She's April's younger sister. She's a photography major in BYU-Idaho. She's also heading to BYUH for the fall semester.

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